Countdown to Surgery

I'm not sure what has happened to blogger. Since we don't have google chrome at work, the new post page is looking quite strange. That sucks, I loved the old format. Sigh.

Well I don't think I am going to weigh myself until the day before the surgery. I don't want to be discouraged. I had a major craving for poutine yesterday at lunch and I got it. Then also had strawberries and tapioca. Then had McD's for dinner. Not a healthy or good day for me.

Feeling like crap because I haven't done the shred this week. I am not able to get up for some reason. I think it's the weather. Haven't even walked after work because the husband is taking a course near my building so he just picks me up after work.

My throat is hurting. Had my teeth cleaned last night, and the polish they do with those granules seem to be stuck in my throat.

Disasterous Weekend

The weekend started out well. I stuck to my diet on Saturday and even did the shred in the morning.

Unfortunately, I knew the visit of the husband's friend would ruin everything. The husband said it "wouldn't look nice" if I ate my chicken and broccoli for lunch instead of eating what the "guest" was having. What I made was beef, chicken, rice, bread, pasta salad. Dessert included ice cream, cappucino and some carrot cake the guy brought over. The carrot cake was soooo good. I feel like having some more.

I likely ate a lot of food and unfortunately, the weight is back up to 175 pounds. Sigh. I know it is likely all water weight but I was at 172 on Saturday. Fuck my life.

Last night, I slept at 6:30pm because I wasn't feeling well. I got up at 7:30am this morning and didn't have enough time to work out. It's also snowing today.

Back on the bandwagon.

What a Long Week!

This felt like a really really long week. I'm glad it's friday, but not looking forward to my meals over the weekend. It's supposed to be rainy so we'll likely be home for the most part.

The husband is inviting his friend from work for dinner on Sunday. I'm going to have my separate dinner of chicken and broccoli. Frankly I don't care if it "looks bad" that I am not eating the same stuff as them. Not looking forward to making dessert either.

I keep reminding myself that I have 2.5 weeks to make a huge dent in my weight before the surgery. And then after it, who knows how long it is before I can work out again.

Surgery Scheduled

I met with the surgeon yesterday and he scheduled surgery to remove my gallbladder for May 9th. I am worried, but I'm sure everything will be fine.

Therefore, I need to lose as much weight as possible before the surgery. Who knows how long it will take me to recover afterwards and I may not be able to work out for a while.

We are also planning a trip to California for mid-June so I am semi-excited about that. I really want to fit into my "regular" sized jeans. I'm not sure that will happen though. I don't want to be fat because I know I won't be able to enjoy anything.

Potential Vacation

The husband brought up going on a potential vacation in mid-June. Of course, this stressed me out to the max. I realized that I need to buckle down and lose as much weight as possible before the trip. It concerns me because I haven't lost as much weight as I thought I would so far. I also tend to hit plateau's what seems like every other week. So to fix this issue, I decided to do level 1 and level 2 of the shred one after another this morning. It was amazing how much I sweat. Hope to keep this up for 7 days and then I'll start another one of JM's videos. I have a number of them...I think I might do 6 weeks to 6 pack (or something like that...can't remember the title). Depending on the intensity of that, I might also do yoga meltdown.

I also received a call from the doctor's office. He has a cancellation today, so I am going to see him about my gallbladder and hopefully schedule surgery! I hope I remember all the questions I want to ask because I usually blank out.

Nice Weekend

Well, for the first time in a long while, I actually had a nice weekend. Friday evening/Monday morning I was pushed to the brink because of an in-law issue, however, I remained calm and made it through the weekend. I did the shred on Saturday and Sunday and stayed with my eating plan (except for 3 potato wedges from the husband's plate that he couldn't finish).

Saturday, we headed out and wanted to go to the Gatineau Hills to go hiking. Unfortunately, it was still closed. So then we went to the mall downtown. We parked far away so we had a nice walk to the mall. We went into Sephora, more at the insistance of the husband, and he wanted me to try on some lipstick. Now I have been feeling crap about myself and haven't worn make-up in a long while. So he made me try on this fushcia pink colour. It made me look amazing. I was actually surprised that such a bright colour actually looked good on me. I think I will go and buy that on the way home tonight.

We walked around the mall and the husband had McD's. I was strong and had a protein bar and a bottle of water.

Sunday was more of a lazy day, watched tv all day and had a nice nap in the middle of the day.

Now for Monday results:

Weight: 175 lbs

Bust: 40"
Waist: 38"
Hips: 42"

Keep it up for this week!

First attempt at the C25K

This afternoon was my first attempt at the C25K plan. I wrote instructions on a little sticky:

• 5 minute warm-up walk
• 60 seconds jogging and
• 90 seconds walking
• Walking/jogging for a Total: 20 minutes

First of all, it is a major pain to do this with a normal watch...had to take it off my wrist and hold it in my hand. Was also worried I might drop it.

I managed the 5 minute warm-up walk alright. Five minutes passed by pretty quickly. I started the first 60 seconds of jogging. A couple people were walking in front of me. I stopped 5 seconds short. Ok, not bad right? Then I reached the light to cross the road. Waited about 4 minutes for that to happen. (yeah I know, what a weird intersection). Continued on and walked for 90 seconds. Then started jogging, but saw someone coming towards me in the distance so stopped. Basically, I ended up walking for the rest of the 20 minutes. I was pretty sweaty.

Well I don't know if I can say this was a good start, but at least I went out and did it. I don't know why I am so conscious when someone walks by me. I know that no one is judging me. But maybe it was because I wasn't in the "usual" work out gear. I suppose I could also stop being lazy and change into running shoes and jogging pants and a sweat shirt. I am basically wearing my work clothes, hiking boots and winter jacket (yes I am still wearing my winter jacket cuz I am always cold and don't want to get sick).

My jacket is absoluetly hideous. It is a weird brown poo colour, missing buttons and extremely dirty. I suppose I could throw it in the wash, get the buttons fixed, or just get a new jacket, but I really want to throw this one away after I lose weight and hopefully it will be the last winter in my life that I will wear it. I also have a brand new gorgeous plum coloured winter coat hanging in the cupboard at home, but it doesn't fit me.

Anyways, I hope to have better luck this weekend. I'm going to buy some chicken and veggies tonight so I have no excuses this weekend. I know in the past, I haven't been sticking to the meal-plans on Saturday and Sunday, so I think I need structured weekends as well.

A pound here and there

Instead of being so hard on myself when I only lose a couple pounds a week, I think I should think of it in a new way. In fact, ever since reading it on someone's blog, I force myself to think about at night.

The next time I feel discouraged, I will go to the store and carry a pound of ground beef and see how heavy it is! This will help visualize what I have taken off my body.

This week has been difficult. So far, the healthy eating is going well, but the exercise isn't. I wasn't able to get up this morning to work out. I will go for a walk this afternoon after work. Hopefully I can get up early tomorrow. I also need to prep my dinners for this week.

Not looking forward to tomorrow when I have my laser hair removal appointment for my legs. The technician is going to up the setting and it's going to hurt like a biatch.

Horrible Weekend

Well, the four-day weekend was horrible. Friday morning, I got up early to do the shred. Unfortunately, that was the only good thing I did all weekend.

The remaining days involved ice cream and pizza and a lot of snacks. Sigh. I am so weak on the weekends. I felt like crap last night as I lay in bed thinking about what happened.

There's no official weigh in and measurements today. I am back to 180.8 pounds this morning. The sad part is that on Friday after doing the shred, I weight 175 pounds. :(

I am so disappointed in myself. I guess I will work hard this week.

Easter Weekend

I actually slept through the entire night last night. It was amazing. I woke up so late. But I still managed to do the shred, prepare the husband's lunch and snacks for the day, and have my breakfast. It just meant I had to give up my shower for the morning. But frankly, I don't care if I stink anymore. I'm trying my best to do what I can. My exercise comes first, then everything else. And if I don't have time to shower, so be it!

I've discovered somewhat of a cure for my consipation and it's the iron tablets. I've taken it every day this week and so far so good.

It's a long weekend, so I won't be posting my results until Tuesday. I'm so excited too see my progress. It's difficult not to weigh myself in-between my check-in days, but I have to be strong. I get discouraged really really easily and don't want anything to mess up the four days I am off. I know the husband is going to want to go somewhere, which usually involves eating somewhere unhealthy. I will have to make healthy choices or bring my own food. It's going to be a real challenge.

Awesomeness all around

I continue to surprise myself. For the past 3 days, I got up at 6am to do the shred! It feels awesome. I'm so happy with myself and I guess it goes to show you that if you really want to be healthy, you can do it. I have owned the shred DVD for about 3 years now. And I have never reached level two! I hope to move to level two this coming Monday.

Speaking of Monday, I can't wait to check my weight and update my blog with my statistics. I am obsessed with eating healthy and working out these days. I think about it before sleeping as well and I feel that eating less sugar has made me a generally happier person...or should I say less grumpier person. I have also successfully avoided the candy/chocolate bowl our receptionist keeps. Also another colleague brought in cake pops (looked delish) and I had avoided them because I knew I wouldn't be able to have just one. The receptionist came by my office yesterday and waved the whole container in front of my face. Seriously how rude! I still resisted though and I'm glad I did.

In other news, I am still waiting for a call from the surgeon's office regarding my gallbladder. I'm on the cancellation list and they said it would be soon. I want to lose a lot of weight before seeing him because I am worried during surgery there might be too much fat in my stomach area.

I hope the cool weather continues. I don't like it when it gets too hot or too cold.

7 day results

The weekend was tough. I stuck to my diet, but also saved some calories for my popcorn obsession. The husband left to meet a friend for lunch on Saturday and I stayed home and did the shred. Although I felt really exhausted, I stuck to it and felt great afterwards. Sunday was going by so slowly and I tried to sit on the stationary bike but it was too difficult. I ended up with a cough (daym weak lungs) and so I stopped. I did a few jumping jacks, but my pj's kept falling off so I was like forget that.

Now for the 7 day results.

Weight - 178.2 lbs (-3.6 lbs)

Bust - 41" (yeah wtf, it went up 1"? Or maybe I measured from a different place this time)
Waist - 38.5" (-0.5")
Hips - 43" (same)

I felt really really disappointed this morning. I thought I would have at least lost 5 pounds, especially because of all the walking I have been doing. But then, I talked myself through it. I thought if my friend lost three pounds, I would say hey good work!! Why am I so hard on myself? Then I proceeded to do the shred and felt great afterwards. It's a short week this week, only 3 more days to get up early and do the shred. I can do it!

I thought about my weight some more on the way to work. I haven't had a bowel movement in 3 days so perhaps there is a 2 pound shit waiting to pass. I know I know, gross, but this is how I talk to myself and wonder how the heck I didn't lose 5 pounds...Ok I am not going to think about that anymore. Looking forward to the coming week and working harder!!!!