Back from Surgery

I am back and it feels good to see my blog again. Yesterday, I tried to access my blog and all blogs on blogger were blocked, including some very interesting blogs I follow like Mama Laughlin. I totally freaked out, but today things are fine. Phew!!!

The surgery went well and the recovery is ongoing. I think it will be another month or so until I feel 100%. Being back to work is very tiring, and still have trouble bending down. As for exercise, I have been walking a lot. But now that it is very humid, I don't think I will be walking outside anymore. I think this is part of the reason I was feeling really sick last night. So I think I should stick to late evening walks when there's a bit of breeze.

It is difficult to convince the husband to go for walks with me...he is becoming lazier and lazier by the day. I sometimes feel like he has turned into me when I was overweight and inactive. I kind of know how he feels though, he used to be so full of energy and I would be like "whatever, I'm too tired". Now that I am trying to be more active, our roles have reversed and I don't like it. But he's not like that all the time. Sometimes he pushes me too far. It's like when we went hiking and I really couldn't do more than 1 hour, but he wanted to do more. I just couldn't do it and he needs to know that I know my body's limits!!

Anyways, more importantly here is the weigh in for this week. I haven't done measurements recently but I am currently stuffed into size 12 pants. My legs look like sausages but I hope it will stop me from eating at the food court.

Weight: 165.6 pounds

You may be interested to know that I have been stuck at this weight for the last week. I guess I have plateaued. I need to figure out a way to get out of it, and I started by having a big lunch and I don't think I'll do any walking today. Hopefully this will shake up my usual routine and I will try starting the shred tomorrow morning. Good luck in the coming week!

Hiking

The weekend was great. I kept up the healthy eating and exercise.

Saturday I wanted to go hiking so we went hiking around Pink Lake in the Gatineau Hills. It was a really nice hike, I'd say moderately difficult. I'm glad the weather was a bit cool so I didn't feel hot and sweaty and gross. I had trouble going up and down, mostly up...As I stopped and held the railing as the stairs going up seemed to never end, and the husband was a few feet in front of me, we noticed a woman carrying her baby in her arms, with two kids going up with no apparant problems. The husband gave me a look which I know meant "you should be embarassed of yourself...the woman with her tiny baby is doing better than you". I felt embarassed and ashamed of myself, but carried on. I'm surprised I even made it to the end...I suppose once you've started, there's no turning back until you reach the end because you're in the middle of nowhere. Well, I realized, I am very out of shape despite losing weight!!

The husband wanted to hike more, but I couldn't do it. It wasn't that I didn't want to, but my socks and shoes were hurting my feet. I think my feet had swollen...and I should have probably worn the special running socks...instead of the cotton ones where you end up with blisters. I also packed a protein bar and water so that was quite useful because I was starving afterwards.

Sunday, I didn't do much...except level 1 of the shred. I also cooked a bunch of chicken breasts and froze some broccoli. It's my prep for the week ahead.

I had the pre-op this morning and they woman took my weight and height. And there was some bloodwork as well. I'm concerned that I won't be able to lift weight for at least 2 weeks, but she said walking is fine. I guess walking will have to do. Thinking back, I really wish I had kept up the healthy eating and exercise for all those weeks...I would have been better off if I had lost another 10 pounds, but I guess there's no point in looking back.

So, the final weigh in before surgery is 170 pounds. I'll be off work for the next 2.5 weeks therefore check in at the end of May for what I have been up to. I am embarassed to admit this to the world, but I do not have internet at home, therefore it will be difficult to update. If I can get to a public library during my off time and if I'm feeling better, I'll post an update.

Last Weekend Before Surgery!

Well the week was interesting to say the least. I went to see the Optifast doctor earlier in the week. He looked at my chart and apparantly I was 198 pounds in November 2011. Really? Why can't I remember that? Of course, now that I actually think about it, I remember being majorly depressed about all aspects of my life that I was very suicidal.

Anyways, he weighed me again, and now I am 172 pounds and my waist is 36". But when I measure my waist at home, I'm still 38" so I'm not sure what that's about. I think he measured it too tight. But hey at least a 30" waist seems within reach (finally...after 3 years!!).

I got a couple boxes of Optifast and will probably replace 1 meal per day with it. Love the chocolate flavour.

This weekend is going to be tough, but I have to make it through no matter what. It will be the last weekend before the surgery and I want to keep exercising until the day before surgery. I hope the weather is nice and we can go hiking tomorrow or Sunday. I just don't want it to be too humid.

Another week

Well another week has started and another weekend I spent binging. Not good. I have gained weight, of course. It's the same thing week after week. I wish I could get out of this rut.

Anyways, I guess all I can do is work out as much as possible before the surgery. The pre-op is booked for Monday morning. I have been googling stuff, and totally freaked out about could potentially happen after the surgery. I wonder how long after I can start working out again. I'm not looking forward to the humid weather, but seriously I am loving working out at home. Now, if only we had air conditioning.

I was at Chapter's last night and saw that Jillian Michaels has a new video. I forget what it is called...but it looks interesting.